Maybe

Maybe if I were -

1. Skinnier

2. Prettier

3. More Stupid

4. More conforming

5. A bitch

6. Blond

7. Bland in both personality and thought process

8. Kept all my thoughts and opinions to myself

9. Did anything that you asked at the drop of a hat regardless the consequence

10. NOT ME

Then maybe you would find it in your heart to:

1. Care, in even the slightest form that you're hurting me

2. Try to at least SAY something that makes any sense, and has an ounce of truth to it

3. Feel anything but selfishly, and look outside the box at how you're treating people.

4. Make a decision. Yes, or no. Now, or never. Black, or white.

5. Attempt to remedy your own personality so that others won't be hurt the way you've hurt me.

With these things, I just don't know. It's not as though my opinion matters to you. You've made it BLATANTLY obvious that I don't matter, in the slightest, regardless of what I say or do.

So yeah. I'm sick of the games. I'm sick of the eternal dangling carrot. What's worth fighting for, happiness with someone who doesn't want you, or a life without a person you've grown to love but who you now realize has never cared in the first place.. Whom you've made fantastic memories and made great friends, mutual friends through, and whom you can't ever see your life without, but you feel as though they're fighting tooth and nail to just NOT be in it?

That's a great question.