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Capricorn: You thought something was all gone, but there's a little left over, just for you.

Ha. I really hope thats what im thinking it is rather than what i hope that is isnt....

New

So, im figuring with the new year, that new things should happen with me as well as with the change in the times. Im wanting to get my hair cut, and its gotta happen soon. So I was figuring a little bit of feedback would be greatly appreciated.

Patience

pa⋅tience

–noun

1.	the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.

2.	an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.

3.	quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.

Conflict and Consequence

They tend to go hand in hand. Where one is a decision the other is the reaction to this decision. As it was told to me recently, is not everything, in itself, a reaction to something else? I'm seeing this. The conflict causes one to make choices. The choices, whether or not they benefit the chooser, bare certain consequences. Also, whether positive or negative, all things happen for a reason. These can be caused by conflict, or consequence. There are many factors..

My dog is sleeping on my feet. I wouldn't have given up this night for the world. Nothing happened... But everything was exposed. Everything became clearer. Everything lit up and spun around and became light and sound and peace. It was good.

I want more of that feeling. Regardless of what consequences I now have to face because of it.

There aren't enough apologies in me to make it okay. But somehow I think things will work themselves out. If not... Then I can't say what. I don't know whats going to happen yet.

Errr

Capricorn: You'll be feeling really on edge today so avoid those who push your buttons!

Change

Capricorn: Change is coming - can you feel it? Look around and you'll notice it starting.

I want it to be in my favor.

Wishes

Capricorn: You wished and wished, and your wishes came true. There's always a reason to hold out hope.

Funny thing is, unless I don't know of something new... They didn't. Aside from the fact that I got about everything that I wanted for Christmas, my wish still hasn't come true...

I'm still hoping though. :D

Capricorn: You were surprised at the lack of drama, but there's a little waiting just around the corner.

That doesn't look too good...

Capricorn: A friend will cheer you up in the midst of all the craziness. That's what feels like home.

Xx_Christmas_xX

For Christmas, I spent the day with my mom and her boyfriend Doug. They are amazing people... I love Doug with all of my heart, and I love that he makes my mom happy. I'm glad that they found each other. :D We had a huge dinner, steak and lobster tail (ooooooh my god... SO good...)
Baked potatoes and asparagus, and then for dessert, we had this delicious strawberry shortcake from the Pennsylvania Bakery which was to DIE for.

At around nine AM, mom came into my room yelling and flashing the lights to wake me up... Quite the rude awakening... But it was totally worth the noise. Mom was so excited for me to open my presents... I think she's adorable like that. So I get my presents open, and I love every single one. Typically mom gets me really amazing gifts, and this year she did not disappoint. After all that, she made me french toast (which was kinda under cooked... still a little raw egg in there) but it was really, really good.

Overall, this Christmas was probably my favorite. Not for the gifts or the food... But because I got to hang out with my mom and actually see her smile and laugh instead of looking depressed or crying. I got to meet a bunch of Doug's family, and he comes from a really good household. His mother is amazing, and so is his sister. Doreen (his sister) is hilarious! We're both Capricorns, which we talked about quite extensively. His mother is a very sweet woman. His brother, though, was an okay person. Few things bothered me about him aside from the fact that he was a little bit overbearing and a little racist... Things I could look over, but could not live with.

For Christmas this year, I got:

+a Singer sewing machine
+a Dremel tool
+a soldering iron
+dremel tool bits
+lottery tickets (which I won 4 dollars!!)
+Lots of beads and beading supplies
+gift certificates
+a cocoa mug and cookies
+ribbon candy

I'm sure I'm missing one or two things. Ill fix it later if so. I'm really happy for this coming new year, as well.
Lots of good things are on the horizon, i think.

Happy Holidays, and may everyone be happy and healthy, and safe as they enjoy themselves!!!

horoscope [?]

Capricorn: You will be the first one to share a piece of good news, and it will be quite a thrill!

Capricorn: It's been a long time coming, but today you will finally hear the news you have been expecting all along.

Im not getting my hopes up /too/ hellishly high...

But I really, really am... :]

mer..

Capricorn: You've been trying to break down the walls someone has built up, and little by little, they are finally starting to come down.

I really hope that this is a sign of good things to come. I really hope that this is the sign that i've been waiting for for so long... so, so long...

Capricorn: A friend's comment will literally make you laugh out loud today. It's great to be surrounded by fun people!

I want to laugh. I want to smile, for real. I don't want to hide anything anymore. I want to be as genuine and honest as possible with everything.

I don't want to lie to anyone, especially myself.

And I won't. I shouldn't have before, but I'm going to start anew now.

Capricorn: Someone you thought didn't like you will be super sweet today. Be suspicious.

That isn't very comforting...

Capricorn: You will get a lot of something you love today and feel completely satisfied and happy.

I wish that had been true...

Maybe it'll be about tomorrow for a little bit of it...

war

I had a dream last night about a war. a HUGE war. Everyone had guns... And the only person I thought about was him. I called everyone, making sure they were okay. I called EVERY SINGLE person i could remember knowing that i can recall. But he was there, I'm nearly sure of it, and we protected each other...

wat

Capricorn: Tick, tock, time's up! You're out of time on a project. You've done as much as you're gonna, so might as well hand it over.

I seriously hope not...

Horoscope[?]

Capricorn: Times have been beyond tough lately, but there's only one way from here - up! Look forward to positive changes, coming soon.

I hope to all that is good that this is a serious, true prediction. I really want some sort of silver lining to appear on this seemingly endless gray cloud.

horoscope [?]

Capricorn: You've gotten just a taste of something you like, but that's not enough. You want more and you want it soon!

but sadly, it wont happen. Not all fairy tales have happy endings.

Attempt(s)

Capricorn: All you want is another chance with someone, but if they aren't willing to give it to you, it is their loss.

This is true. I'm just not that willing to give up yet.

Schism

Silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion between supposed brothers. Between supposed lovers.

Capricorn: Don't forget to wish a friend good luck today! They really need it and will appreciate your support.

Bullshit.

I just painted my toe nails black.

I uploaded a new video to youtube. I hope it is enjoyed.

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...Thank you...

...Gift?

Capricorn: Someone will surprise you with a gift today. Whoops, you don't have anything for them yet!

I sure as hell hope not. My holiday shopping hasn't even begun let alone people getting me stuff.... GRAR IF YOU DID GET ME ANYTHING WAIT TILL CHRISTMAS YOU FREAK!

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Capricorn: Too much of a good thing is not enough! You're certainly enjoying yourself this holiday season, aren't you?

That's ironic, because I'm not. I don't think I've had a good holiday season since I was little... When nothing mattered but presents and happiness wasn't so hard to find.

Finance

Capricorn: An incident in your personal life will force you to reevaluate your career goals. You need to figure out how to balance both parts of your life.

Its becoming more apparent to me that I need to make more money. No mater what, I have to try and get a job that makes more than the measly salary that Ive been making for the last three years.
I'm looking, and Ive found one that i think will be good. I want it... But I'm scared to get it.