apricorn: No one likes a know-it-all. You know what you're talking about, but have to humor someone else.

true

Capricorn: Things have been getting better, better, better, and today will be the best one yet.

Capricorn: The moment you've been waiting for is so, so close. You just need one last bit of patience!

Capricorn: An uneasy feeling will settle over you today, but it should be gone by the late afternoon.

Somehow I feel like im falling into a black hole.

Rant

I feel like I'm going to vomit. Sitting here filling out this paperwork that's way, way overdue is making me more and more nervous. I'm ecstatic and nervous... i feel so sick. Ive been sick for a while now... It probably doesn't help that Ive been getting next to no sleep anymore... but at this moment i really don't care.. i need to find some way to knock myself out before i stay awake all night trying to find ways not to go out of my skin in agonizing pain from my stomach twisting itself into knots....

surger

Capricorn: A missed connection will be corrected today when you finally link up with someone.

I honestly can't say I've seen this happen yet today. Maybe in the wee hours of the morning it'll happen, or even late tonight... But aside from that, nothing relevant to this.

Oh Horoscope, you're so silly sometimes.

Lonely at the Top

When all you get is what you want, you start to realize that getting everything that you want comes with a certain price. Things start to change, and people start to become more and more false faced. The more you get, the less you want. Morally, if one were to be sound in what they want, their understanding of certain things would make it so that they were constantly surrounded by positive energies, supportive and kind, who are willing to do anything to prolong the success of that person. Others, when they don't realize how good they had it, tend to push away their confidants for those things and people who are not necessarily that great for their health. Celebrity status can really change a persons social life in in good an bad ways. More likely than not, if one isn't careful with the connections that they keep, they can end up going down the road of Lohan and Hilton. Even Richie got into some pretty nasty business because of the company that she decided to keep.
The more you look for the right things in the wrong places, the more you may understand that when the time comes, you won't be where you wanted, after all.

Money.

Capricorn: You have no idea how you forgot something so important, but you did. Whoops!

I forgot to pay my car insurance bill today... im going to get it paid, but im pissed that i forgot... Oh well. Shit happens. There's always Monday.

I also forgot my mom's medication print out paper thing... but that fixed itself. Looks like the thirteenth wasnt quite so unlucky after all.

I actually really love the number 13. It's 10+3... Two nice numbers, both enjoyable.

Ironically, today kinda counts for something else too.... And that makes me sad.

Miff

You know, I find it ironic that when /i/ do something like this, even once, I get the third degree. "You ditched me. You left me for a boy. You couldn't think of me for once."
But when this happens and anyone else does it, it's as though human beings make mistakes. People are supposed to just move on, take a deep breath, and pretend it never happened. That's just how things are. Look the other way, just like every other time.

This seems to be a common thing lately. Very, very common. It's really starting to get annoying too. It's not as though I don't attempt to make plans when I can, if I can. Why bother making any sort of plans when it just ends up being a waste of breath anyway? I mean, why make any sort of effort when there's no upkeep on the other end?

It seems to me like we're all human, here. Maybe we don't want to be, but we are. We humans make mistakes. And I'd appreciate a little bit of maturity and understanding in this. It's not like this is the first time, nor will this be the last time, I'm sure. And trust me, I do remember when it happens. And honestly? It's hurtful. Like it wasn't important enough to keep in mind. Why should it be, anyway... It's only time. We've got till 2012, right?

-sigh- I'm just disappointed. That's all.

Capricorn: You don't want to be too harsh, but a friend asked for the truth. You cannot tell a lie.

I googled you today. I used to do it a lot... More than not, and even though it's not healthy, I did it anyway. But, today I didn't get that twisting, tightening feeling in my guts. I felt normal. Like I do any other time. I thought about it, and I think that I'm finally getting over it. That I'm coming to terms with the fact that it's done. Saga ended. Or at least, for now. I can be at peace again. I'll never be the same person I was before or during you... But I do know that I can be a better person now that I know what I want, and how to get what I want the healthy way. The way I should be going about getting things. The way that I think is the right way, not the way you want me to go about it. It's an envigorating, uplifting, free feeling. I'm free. I'm finally free. I never thought that I'd want this feeling to ever set in. But now that it's here, I want it, and I'm going to embrace it... I love this feeling. I want to be fine again. I think i'm finally on the road to recovery... For real this time.
I'm making a box full of all the shit that I think I need to bury.. and i'm actually going to bury it. In the back yard, under the dirt. Im going to plant good things ontop of it when spring finally gets here. It'll stand as a symbolic thing for me. I want it all to be okay... and it will. It will all be okay.

express

I can't find my passport... I can't find it and I really want it just in case it so happens that I might want to go to canada.... or some other country...
i really dont like losing stuff thats important to me... It irritates the shit out of me...

omg

Capricorn: You are so not getting sick right now! Cancel plans with anyone with even a hint of a sniffle.

note

Capricorn: You will have to stop yourself from saying something inappropriate today. Bite your tongue!

overkill

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
Perhaps it's just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night from overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away
Come back another day

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
It's just overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away
Ghosts appear and fade away
Ghosts appear and fade away

Capricorn: You hate feeling like you're being taken for granted. Speak up or forever hold your peace.

Secondhand Serenade

Capricorn: Work through an issue alone today. Advice is nice, but your own opinion has the most value.

So... I'll fix this post later, but this is basically how the night went.

1) driving to the Secondhand Serenade show I'm tailed by a cop for around a mile... Only to find out that he was either not tailing me or just wanted to make sure i wasn't drunk.

2) get to the show and stand in a long line for like.. 20 minutes in the freezing cold (it was probably less but when its cold who keeps track of time)

3) listened to three not-so-good emo/scene bands... Yeahhhh, I'm not sure how they made the ticket to play with the only band im sure most people came to see.

4) got to hear Secondhand Serenade live at the Chameleon club (thx to erik <3)

5) assisted a lady in need of some help because her boyfriend was a drunk tool and in doing so risked my personal well being and probably the well being of all of the people I was with

6) got caught in a blizzard on the way home

7) hit some poor persons side mirror as a jeep nearly side-swiped me at 12am.

and that's about it for now.

unprepared

Capricorn: All you can do today is be prepared as best you can. Beyond that, it's out of your hands.

Some days, my horoscope makes me question a lot. Im wondering what Im supposed to be preparing for. -shrug- I really hope that it's all alright...

ow

Capricorn: You will be inspired to try something out of your comfort zone today, and you will love it.

I would love new challenges to come to me more often.

Pain is not my favorite thing... Not even a little bit. Not any type of pain.