Ghost

I'm kind of afraid that it's going to be the same with this that it was before. That you're going to disappear, just like he did. Am I expecting too much? Is it that I just want to keep everyone I've ever come into contact with as at least a friend? I'm sure that I'm not alone in the whole "don't want to be alone" thing. Most of the time I figure everyone wants to be friends. Especially considering all of the time that was shared.

Maybe I'm wrong though. Maybe you are just the same as he was, and still is from what I've been told. I find it ironic that you say one thing about a girl, and though she's "engaged" you find no problem with sticking your tongue down her throat. Maybe it's because she's taken? Maybe it's because she's different? I really don't know. But i'd love to know why. Haha, it's almost kind of silly to think that I believed anything that was said. Yes, I may be upset, but to lie even more even though the anger and disappointment is already there? That's just dumb. To lash out, when I'm obviously trying to just push away from the stressful situation.... That's rude. The language was un necessary. I find that the guilt probably drove it. "I don't care anymore." When did you start caring? That's another question i'd love to have answered.

Maybe it would be better if you just leave. Just disappear. Just like I wish I would sometimes. You're no good. And even though I'd still forgive all of it, I'm giving up on you. You won't try, even though you say that you've tried. Just because you try in the past, doesn't mean you get to stop trying in the present.

Which means you're displacing yourself from my life in the future. Just like him.