Gross

Haha, I love my friends. They make me realize how much I'm needed, and wanted, and how special I am. I realized that all before, but lately it's been kinda difficult to hold onto -.-''

So anyway. I've got a whole new plan. Everything is going to go SO good, I can't even wait for it :]

My friend is coming over. I'm so excited... I honestly don't know what I would have done lately without him. He's been my shining star through this whole fucking mess. He's the only guy, aside from my newest friend, that I can honestly trust. Since I decided it was better to trust your friends than those who pretend to be your friends, it's been a lot easier to think about a whole lot of stuff.

Expendable people really aren't needed in my life. And honestly? I've finally decided that it's okay to be me. It's okay to love, and be loved in return. I deserve to be respected. I deserve to feel loved. I deserve to feel as though I trust people. I deserve to feel beautiful, and desired, and special.

I deserve better.

And i'm getting it! I'm so happy.... This is probably the best thing to happen to me in a long, long, LOOOOOOONG ass time. And i'm glad to finally stop being depressed over someone[thing] that honestly didn't matter.

Especially since it was blatantly obvious that I wasn't important to them.

Note to self: Become a priority to yourself, instead of an option to someone else.


:D