Thought

Thoughts. Every day, countless thoughts buzz about in the mind of any given person at any given time. So many subjects, so many worries, so many thoughts of happiness, of sadness... There is so much to think about. Whatever one may be thinking at a given time, it is important to remember not to let those thoughts take over their life.

I have a problem with that. I've allowed a certain thought to permeate my very existence... The thought that maybe, someday, a single person would prove me wrong and tell me that they love me, with no qualms or withholding of any sort of feeling or previous doubt. I have a certain person in mind... One with whom I've loved since the very moment I saw their face. One, for which, I would give my very life if I had to, or if asked. This may seem a bit bizarre, even a little bit taboo for some people. But, needless to say, this is how I feel. It is one thing that I stand by more diligently than anything else. I love this person, and will always love them.

Love, in my opinion, is a very bizarre concept. To fall in love with another person and be willing to give up everything for them, whether it be possessions, loved ones, or even life... To be completely, indubitably and irrefutably in love with a person... I know that feeling. It can be both a gift from the heavens or a curse sent from the depths of the darkest of places, sometimes seemingly only to torture the very soul that one may be willing to give up for the one that they love so very, very much. I know this feeling... I would never give it up for the world, but I would say that the pain that couples with the pleasures of love could be done without. Especially considering Ive seen more from the negative end of such things rather than the positive... But alas, it must be as it is. Life and its follies are but learning experiences... But I want it to be okay again. I want it to be now, when things fall into place.

I am quite impatient.