nausiated

The thought... Just the THOUGHT... Makes me feel so terrible. I honestly don't know what to do about it. I want to scream to the sky and throw myself to the ground and kick and flail and throw an epic fit... But I can't. I don't typically do that

I'm really not feeling that great. I want to cry... I need a hug.

I feel like everything that I hold dear, that I love, that's important to me is slipping away.

I want some closure... I need to have some sort of anchor that I know will stay with me regardless of what happens. So much of my life has become fluid... I'm never sure about much. Trust has become a big issue with me. I don't know who I can trust and who I'll never be able to... I want that one thing, the trust that I can't seem to find.

Without trust, there is no love.

I need some sort of closure.. I need it, because without that I'm going to doubt everything.

I'm beginning to question everything. Absolutely everything.