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To have sat in this same position, on many a separate occasion about the same problem seems a little bit redundant. I mean, having already established the cause of the problem, would it not just be easier to alleviate it all together by just removing it, therein removing the symptom of anxiety and depression? Apparently you've never been in a situation where it could be the bottom jenga block and you don't know whether or not you really want to make the whole thing crumble, just to start over, or if you're perfectly content to wait until you find an easier move to continue playing the game...

Yeah. It's kinda like that.

But sometimes I just don't understand. You're a part of someones life. Of someones world, apparently... And what they do is not reassure you or attempt to make things better, they drift even farther into the problem because they are more transfixed on the fact that it makes them feel good to do whatever it is they're doing. Regardless of whether or not the other person is tearing out their own eyes to get away with living in the same place, and they've expressed that things have gotta change for anything to work.. They continue on their same path, and the other person is either reckless enough with themselves or stupid enough to just sit and wait for them to either open their eyes or fuck up so badly that they lose everything so that they realize either that they never wanted what they had in the first place or they want it more than they realized, and let it slip through their fingers like grains of sand in the Sahara...

I really hope the eye opening happens before the drifting away part, because I don't know exactly how I'd deal with losing the one thing that was important to me right now.