empty

My stomach is empty and my mind is full. I read once in Charlotte's Web, that when your stomach is empty and your mind is full, it's hard to sleep. I feel that way sometimes.... It takes me a while to get connected when I'm hungry. But for some reason, today I enjoy being hungry. It makes me feel like I've got control over something. Being able to look over at my refrigerator, knowing that there's food inside, and being able to keep myself from ricocheting out of my seat and bury my head into the container of ice cream that's in there makes me feel good. I'm not exactly sure what I even want to eat at the moment... Maybe I'll just wait till tomorrow, or maybe I'll make some ramen and drink a huge glass of milk... I don't know what's going on inside of me right now... It's like I'm being driven into some dark place that has no hope for light, so I'm hibernating for as long as humanly possible to conserve myself... To sustain what I've got left of myself before it metamorphoses into something that I might not enjoy... I'm not looking forward to a lot of the change that i know is happening, and will most definitely happen in the near future... But this as like any other change must come, and I've gotta accept it for what it's worth. I can only control myself, and my actions, and that is how it is with everything. With every action that I make, there is both a positive and equal reaction. Newton's law. It's bound to happen sometime....