Blame it on the alcohol.

So, here's the thing. You've got this person on your mind. You work with them. They're constantly around you, you hang out with them all the time. You joke with them, talk with them, bond with them, play games with them... And then you pretend that nothing's going on so that you can "keep the peace" at work. ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED. Everyone can see it, and you're only delaying the inevitable. Don't keep trying to hide what you feel, because it's only hurting YOU. And the person whom you've stolen the heart of !!!! Now I wish that I could scream at you and tell you, little mermaid style, "KISS THE GIRL!! SHA LA LA LA LA LA DONT BE SHY!!" It's not like you have to get married... Or have sex... Just fucking kiss her! I'm pretty sure it's just as frustrating for all of us who have to watch it as it is for you not to do it, or even to admit anything to her. Jesus Christmas you're terrible at hiding your feelings under all that tough exterior. It's not like we don't all watch as that look of longing SEEPS FROM YOUR VERY CORE. You both have it. It's not a secret anymore... Everyone talks about it, but only you deny what's truly going on. Just admit it, and move forward in what could be! Just fall into the happy. Don't get caught up in the politics of it all right now. Just enjoy! Unless somehow you end up being deported.. In which case, it really wouldn't matter anyway, especially if you just so happen to NOT have the insanely obvious attraction for each other.