Capricorn: You don't want to be too harsh, but a friend asked for the truth. You cannot tell a lie.

I googled you today. I used to do it a lot... More than not, and even though it's not healthy, I did it anyway. But, today I didn't get that twisting, tightening feeling in my guts. I felt normal. Like I do any other time. I thought about it, and I think that I'm finally getting over it. That I'm coming to terms with the fact that it's done. Saga ended. Or at least, for now. I can be at peace again. I'll never be the same person I was before or during you... But I do know that I can be a better person now that I know what I want, and how to get what I want the healthy way. The way I should be going about getting things. The way that I think is the right way, not the way you want me to go about it. It's an envigorating, uplifting, free feeling. I'm free. I'm finally free. I never thought that I'd want this feeling to ever set in. But now that it's here, I want it, and I'm going to embrace it... I love this feeling. I want to be fine again. I think i'm finally on the road to recovery... For real this time.
I'm making a box full of all the shit that I think I need to bury.. and i'm actually going to bury it. In the back yard, under the dirt. Im going to plant good things ontop of it when spring finally gets here. It'll stand as a symbolic thing for me. I want it all to be okay... and it will. It will all be okay.