Distaste

Give me a break with this heartache
I doubt it will make it through till tomorrow, it's bogged down with sorrow
and guilt, and it's built, on these stilts which wobble
5 feet and 3 inches high

You ask me why I'm this way, and all I can say
is I've gone through my fair share of shit
And you want all I've got so I'll give it a shot
I just hope you don't regret it

I'm unimpressed, think it's best if we give it a rest
I'm so tired, I can't stand, for fear I will land on my ass
Let time pass, this can't last
'cuz I am just barely getting by

You ask me why I'm this way, and all I can say
is I've gone through my fair share of shit
And you want all I've got so I'll give it a shot
I just hope you don't regret it

You ask me why I'm this way and all I can say
is I've got nothing to hide behind
no excuses to confuse this, 'cuz everyone loses
But it's better than living a lie



I'm so tired of feeling used up... I'm feeling terribly, and looking for the only thing that's been making me feel terrible is the one thing that's been trying to make me feel better. For some reason "" it seems to me that if someone says "don't do that", it'd be nice... NO, it'd be HUMAN DECENCY to just... Not do it... So, it would be the logical thing to think "with every action, there comes an equal and opposite reaction." What else was to be expected? That's not right. Please stop. Stop. No I mean it, stop. STOP. GOD DAMMIT STOP. KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF...

See? It's cumulative... You can't just expect the same thing, with no change, to make anything better, can you? I mean, honestly. If the action is to attempt to help, and the action becomes abrasive, and you've been asked on NUMEROUS occasions to STOP. Don't DO that. PLEASE don't do that. GET AWAY from that. I can't believe that after the incessant din of the repetition nothing would even scratch the surface for you.

I'm just flabbergasted. You expect something less severe than a brick when a pillow just didn't cut it? Honestly.